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20 Years With My Best Friend!

Today, August 18th,  I celebrate 20 years with my best friend!

Tammy, I am so grateful to you. For being the amazing woman you are. Strong. Confident. Gentle. Patient. Full of grace. And drop dead gorgeous :)

I realized something this year. I know I often say the opposite, but… i DO deserve you. You are the perfect compliment to who I am. Your strengths and passions match so well with my weaknesses and dreams. I get to do life better, because Im doing it with you.

We are in transition this year. A crazy move to tennessee! There are no special dinners, or fancy cards, or surprise vacations. Not this year. They will happen again as they’ve happened before. But, even though I cant give you all that this year, there is a peace. There is a confidence in who we are and where we are going. There is an excitement for what tomorrow brings. And there is a vision of the next 20 years… and I like it!

Tammy, I love you! Thank you!

Happy Anniversary…

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  • 6 months ago
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3 Things I Learned While Moving Across The Country

My family and I just spent 5 days on the road moving from Oregon to Tennessee. When I look back on this, I can actually say that it wasn’t that bad. Good conversation. Beautiful scenery. And there is something fun about staying in different states every night. At least for a short period of time.

While driving, I had lots of time to think. As I come away from the trip, Im able to look back and see some simple things that I learned while on the road. I think some of these things relate to what I do in ministry.

#1 Just Keep Moving…
Driving a big moving truck creates new and interesting issues. Our truck had an overheating problem and at times we were going over mountain passes as high as 8500 feet. The first pass we reached, I had to stop 2 different times and park the truck at the side of the road so it could cool down. Needless to say, this left us about 2 hours behind schedule on the first day.

As time went along, I noticed that if I just kept moving, air would properly pass through the radiator and the truck would make it over the hills. I definitely had to slow down. Sometimes even to a crawl. But, if I didnt stop, we got over the hill and stayed on schedule. In life, we often hit an obstacle and instead of moving and working through it, we stop. Maybe hoping it will go away or fix itself. But it wont. It has to be addressed.

We have to quit giving up every time we hit an obstacle. We grow when we go through trial, not when we avoid it.

#2 Its Not About What I Have
As I said, our truck was rough. At each fill up of gas I would also add 2 gallons of radiator fluid. The truck also leaked like crazy. The door molding was pretty much gone. I could stick my hand through the door cracks to the outside, when the door was closed. This proved interesting when we drove through a massive thunderstorm in Missouri. Also, we had no A/C. Thats right, we handled the trip across country with only the outside air. Let’s just say it… the truck was a piece of crap.

But, we arrived, on time and intact. Our goal was to move from Oregon to Tennessee. And we did it. Regardless of the equipment we were using to get there. We adapted, adjusted and even wrestled a time or two to get that truck to do what we needed. And still, we are here. At times we have to get creative and roll up our sleeves and get dirty.

Too often, we get caught up in the lack of tools or resources we have, when we should be focusing more on the task at hand. Its not about what I have, its about where Im going.

#3 The World is A Lot Bigger Than Me
One of the coolest things about this trip was the chance to drive through and sometimes stay in places I have never been. I love the journey. I love experience. Each night we were in a different town in a different state.

One evening we were in Cheyenne, Wyoming. We stopped into a mall there to do a little shopping. I found myself walking through the mall and seeing all these people. I was so interested in knowing who they were. Why did they live here? What do they do? Do they even like Wyoming? We had driven through the state that day, and I cant say I was overly impressed. It was dry and pretty boring to drive through. I couldnt understand why people would want to live in this huge city in the middle of nowhere. Then I realized how arrogant that was.

As a Pastor, I often have found myself so wrapped up in my needs, my ministry, my schedule that I have flat out ignored the people and needs directly around me. Its easy for me to think that what I do and where I live is most important. If people are not here, they dont get it. Its embarrassing to say, but its true.

Its easy to get lost in our own world. We need to look outside our own comfort and continually pour into the world around us. That’s what God has asked us to do.

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Anyway, we are here. On a new journey. Enjoying the new opportunity to serve, live and pour into a new group of people. Its going to be a stretch in many ways, but we are excited to see God work!

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  • 7 months ago
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It Doesnt Matter…

I went to the gym this morning. It was my usual routine, which ends up with some time on a cardio machine. Its such a great place to zone out and think. I think about family, work, life, future, dreams, failures. You name it.

As I was thinking this morning, I found myself evaluating where I am. What I do. How well I do it. After many of these thoughts, I came to conclusions. Ideas of how to move forward. I found myself continually making the statement, “it doesnt matter”. It could have been better…it doesnt matter. I need to try harder…it doesnt matter. Im not succeeding…it doesnt matter. Now, dont get me wrong. I want to live life to its fullest potential. I want to be an ultimate pleasure to the God that created me and I serve. But, I realize now, I too often relate simple or easy to enough.

How many times as leaders, do we walk away from an event or project and we think, there were lots of mistakes and I could improve on this, but God showed up in a powerful way, so…it doesnt matter. For me, I find It way too easy to do this.

Ive been saying it doesnt matter, too much. So much, that its become a way I look at things. Its easy to fall back on. I use, “God showing up” as a chance for me to slack off. For me to say things dont matter, is to place a lower value on those things. My life, and how I live it, should have the utmost value placed on every commitment, thought, process, decision, and step.

Everything matters. Not some things. Not just what I prioritize. Everything. In my weakness, God is strong. If life is easy or simple for me, am I even giving God room to show up my life? I dont want to live life  walking down a sidewalk, just to get to my car. I want to experience the power of God in every facet of my life. From the small and the big. Everything Matters.

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  • 1 year ago
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NOT the way I planned to spend New Years Day

Last week, I decided on my “One Word” for 2011. If you are not familiar with “One Word”, head over to Alece’s blog and get involved!

Essentially, I have chosen one word that will be a focus for me for this year. I settled on the word “Discipline”. Discipline is something I have always struggled with. And unfortunately, discipline permeates every aspect of our lives. Disciplined to living healthy. Physically, emotionally and spiritually. Disciplined to tasks and duties. at home and at work. Disciplined to family and relationships. If I struggle with discipline, I struggle with life.


Saturday morning started as many other New Years days before. Slept in, enjoyed a little breakfast and then football. Pretty much, my entire day was to be spent in the lazy chair watching football. Shortly after lunch, I felt a flutter in my chest. About once or twice a year, I will experience a little flutter in my chest. I am known to have a heart murmor and these flutters have been shown not to be dangerous. But, what would normally last for seconds, didnt go away. For 30 minutes, my heart fluttered and my heart rate raced. 

If you have a chance, you can head over now and read my wife’s account of this event. She is much more detailed than I want to be here, because I want this post to be about the “One Word”.

In the end, I was found to be in “Uncontrolled Atrial Fibrillation”. Essentially my heart was racing at a fast pace(180-220bpm) and very irregularly. I had no rhythm. So, they ended up shocking me and forcing the heart back into rhythm. CRAZY! Again, you can read more detail at Tammy’s Blog.

So, where do I go from here. Well, I was given a clean bill of health when I left the ER. My heart is in perfect condition. My labs looked good, although I had elevated enzymes in my liver. In other words, My eating and drinking are likely the cause to setting this off. One more detail…It hereditary. And, my Mom has it. So, I now know that I am predisposed to Atrial Fiblliration.

I think God was smiling when I said I wanted discipline in my life. He sure did set me on a course! I now am forced to face, head on, my laziness. My selfishness. My pride. And sacrifice it all at the hands of discipline. I start immediately. I am fortunate that A-Fib is generally not deadly. Long term exposure to it can cause issues down the road. but, I hold the keys to that door. I can choose whether I live or die well. 

Many are not given this chance. Some die tragically in a moments notice. On the way to the ER Saturday, I took time to understand that this might be it. I had no idea what was ahead. I had no idea what was happening to me. The unknown is fearful. Side note…Why do we fear the known? But, that is a whole other discussion.

I am grateful. To have more time with my amazing wife and kids. To serve my God. To live out my dreams. And, through discipline, I can drastically affect the path I take on this journey.

So, Discipline it is. The course has been set… 

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  • 1 year ago
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Final Update On My Dad…For Now…

Today, my Dad left the hospital! It is not without its fears, but there are definitely more celebrations today.

This morning, he finally had his MRI. The DR gave him the diagnosis. Multiple Strokes. It is amazing that my Dad is in the condition he is in. Each day, he is regaining use of his arm and DR’s believe he will have a full recovery. There is no permanent brain damage or other issues to speak of. We are blown away. To expand on our amazement, the massive clots in his Coratid artery are not on there way into the brain, they are on their way OUT! These massive clots went through my Dad’s brain and caused the strokes. And yet, he went almost completely unaffected by them. Amazing. 

I credit your prayers. Thank you! I am so blessed to have so many of you praying. Thank you!

So, next week my Dad still has to discuss with a specialist a plan of attack to get the clots out and to stint the Coratid Artery. That is a very evasive process. And, with my Dad’s condition, can be very dangerous. We will deal with that when it comes. Today, I am grateful and blessed. And I thank all of you for your thoughts, messages and prayers!!!

Thank you!

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  • 1 year ago
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Update #2 On My Dad…

I just want to start again by saying thank you. Your prayers and notes and messages are amazing.

So, today there was some frustration, but possible great news as well!

My Dad needs an MRI to figure out how much damage was done to his brain, if there is any damage at all. The MRI has been rescheduled 3 times and is now supposed to happen tomorrow am at 8. We are anxious for this. 

Now, the possible good new. The Doctor has had a chance to look through all the data and scans they have taken so far. She believes there are 2 options. #1 Stroke. #2 Seizure. The reason this is good news is that my Dad does deal with seizures. Not the crazy whole body seizures. The frontal lobe kind. Its mostly a distraction and he can have quite a few before it takes his energy and strength away. But this one may have been more intense. Thats great news, because its controllable and it does not create lasting damage.

There is still the issue of the clots in his Coratid Artery. This still will be dealt with and the MRI will give a real good view of how bad it is. He was told between 60-90%. Thats horrible. Just the lack of bloodflow alone can cause strokes or death. So, this will be the big issue to deal with in the future.

But, all in all, a good day. He is strong and looks great. He is up and around as if nothing ever happened. This is also part of the reason it may have been a seizure.

So, this means your prayers have done 2 things. First, they have kept him safe. Second, they have allowed this whole situation to be an opportunity for the Doctors to find the clots! We would never have known. He had to be in the hospital, with the treatment he is getting, to have found these clots. 

So, thank you. Keep praying!

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  • 1 year ago
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Happy Mothers Day!
You are a better Mom for our kids than I could ever ask for.
I love you!
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Happy Mothers Day!

You are a better Mom for our kids than I could ever ask for.

I love you!

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  • 1 year ago
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Yesterday Tammy and I took a quick trip to Portland to pick up Alece. We were in town for a total of 2 1/2 hours. Crazy!
We ate dinner quickly with the Clayville’s and then made two quick stops. VooDoo donuts and Stumptown! A trip to Portland is never complete without Donuts and Coffee…
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Yesterday Tammy and I took a quick trip to Portland to pick up Alece. We were in town for a total of 2 1/2 hours. Crazy!

We ate dinner quickly with the Clayville’s and then made two quick stops. VooDoo donuts and Stumptown! A trip to Portland is never complete without Donuts and Coffee…

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  • 1 year ago
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If you havent checked it out yet…
Head over to my amazing wife’s new Blog!
Thanks to @joshuawhite for his hard work to get it rolling :)
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If you havent checked it out yet…

Head over to my amazing wife’s new Blog!

Thanks to @joshuawhite for his hard work to get it rolling :)

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  • 1 year ago
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